"I can't do this anymore..." was the phrase of the day for me. We got mobbed at my starbucks and our ice machine decided not to make ice fast enough. Annoying.

So, Jen picks me up and decided to call our old landlord about when we should have our deposit ready. He calls back while we're shopping and tells us "Oh... The guys on the second floor decided not to move... And I don't know if the girl on the third is moving or not, she still has 2 months left...."

WTF!!!?!?!

This come after a lame 3 day period where Jen is having amazing and awful luck. Her truck got towed wedneday.

Things were just working out too well to actually keep going strong. So we get fucked over again. I hate this.

So, back to apartment hunts.


In other news, I'm waiting impatiently for my next Pullip to arrive. I won her on ebay for 50.00.



I hope she arrives safely. Dolls have become my re-newed obsession that I can lose my self/worries in. I suck, I know.

I bought a doll. I figure I should wait for the big one. And they had a Pullip doll at Newbury Comics.

She's cute, though she came in a wedding dress, but I can make her clothes.

See!



Her name is eternia, but I'm not a fan. I'm bad at names.

I might just buy one more of these dolls with the money I got from graduation. We'll see.


Oh, and great news. We can stay at our current place until August.

Thank you sweet jesus!!!

Becuase by the looks of it, we're going to be homeless... Or sleeping on some couches.... Bah. And our cats have no where to go :(

Anyone interested in cat sitting three cats? They're good kitties, we'll provide food and litter...

Back to packing. It's going pretty quickly. And I keep getting rid of things. Good times.

So, after watching Blood Sport in bed while snuggling, I try to get up and Jen says "No! Nap with me for 20 minutes.." I give in, we get comfy. and now it's 1:30... we napped 2 hours and ten minutes longer then we meant. She's still sleeping. I'm going to make sweet tea.

Our old place, in Somerville. Haha! Our old landlord said we can have the 2nd or third floors for the same price we were paying (950 instead of his current rate 1200...) AWESOME! BUT we have to wait until August first and were both freaking out. Working at Starbucks has it's perks. My Coworker overheard the dilemma and offered her place to us for a month! She has it until the end of summer and she's shipping off to Africa to do some teacher things. SWEET!

I have to pack now. I hate packing.

Not paying rent for a couple of months will be amazing, because I want a doll... Now.

*Grabby hands*


I figure I'll get her first and buy the regular shall head later. I also like the black wig more.

Regular Shall:


Mmmmm... $560.00 for a doll...

I don't care. I graduated college and I deserve something I've wanted to a long time. The problem seems to be Stopping myself from buying her every other week.

I wants it! I wants it now!

( Things I wants for it )

Those of you who knew me then will recognize this, hahaha!!




I haven't been drawing much lately. My hand starts to ache/get numb/tingle/tense up. Booo........

May 19, 2008

so, this is rough news. Our Landlady's son got married and they can't find an apartment, so he asked his mom to take our place. I'm really annoyed because it was so sort notice though she did tell us that she was scared to tell us because she likes us (her and Jen work together, that's how we got the place, and Jen is like her kid.) She said to take all the time we need, but we're searching asap. We looked at two places yesterday. They were so small :(

I'm sad because I finally got really cozy in the current place we are at. I love this house, everything is where it should be, it's a big place, and it's cheap. But this means we can move closer to the city and my commute won't be as long and tiring as it is now.

I may get a big promotion at starbucks to be an assistant manager! It makes sense. I've been there three years and don't see myself really finding another job, and there are worse places to work! So, this means money and being able to live comfortably, finally!

Jen and I are going to go pick up our marriage license soon! I don't think we're going to have a wedding, just a little something between us and a justice of peace and then throwing a big party sometime after.

I'm rambling. This is usually crap that is in my livejournal, but, it's a bit life changing, so I wanted to share.

Oh, I saw the Death Note movie in theater yesterday, with HORRIBLE dubbing! It was kind of awesome, much better in Japanese though. I hate that they had all the stupid anime voice actors dub it over. And not well. Jen was bored with it at first but got into it at the end, so we're going to watch the second movie later.

Also, on another things-that-are-exciting-to-me note, I found volume 6 of akira online for cheap! I'm so excited. I'm happy I'll have the whole dark horse set!

and I've begun to fall in love with neon genesis evangelion, though the manga. I enjoy it a lot.

I'm such a nerd, :B

Drawings are coming a long slowly. I'll try to post a couple of things soon.




May 21, 2008

So, Jen and I went to look at a place today, and on the way back, we stopped by MassArt so I could get my grade for my last class (from last summer. I got the incomplete fixed finally) and transfer it to my BFA etc. etc. Well, the woman said I needed three more credits, I was going to be very mad, BUT! Good thing I took fashion history 1 and 2 before they were critical studies classes, because she counted one of them as the credits I needed to get my diploma. She asked if I'd like to attend commencement and I shrugged and said "Why not.... My mother is going to cry." So, I got my two tickets and my cap and gown and friday I'll be graduating from Massachusetts College of Art!!!

I can't stop thinking about how I'll be a COLLEGE GRADUATE on friday!!

OMFG I'm finally done with college!!! Honestly, I didn't expect it to feel this good.

We also may have found an awesome place to move into, I need to call the little old woman tomorrow. It was huge..... Basement, first floor, second floor and attic!!! Only 1000 a month but it's oil heat. Neither of us care about that with a place that size, it's also well insulated. *crosses fingers*

Things just keep working out. This means that a. either we're going to win the lottery or b. something HORRIBLE is going to happen soon. I don't want to get my hopes up or down, so I'll just go with life as it passes.

p.s. I made a random video about Quiggly.



:D

p.p.s.
I looked cute yesterday :P
My badge says "Best Chest" Hahaha!

Share this with friends, family, anyone! I want to get rid of everything!

Think of this as Cat's Digital Yard sale.

If you're interested in anything, email me at miss_skittlekitty@yahoo.com.
-Make sure 'things for sale' is in the title.
-Let me know what you want (include number and description) and I'll put it aside and mark it off the list here.
-Include your address.
-Payment only through Paypal please.

So, everything is numbered and priced.
I'm going to charge $6.oo in shipping and handling fees (packaging/paypal charges/shipping confirmation). Everything is shipped Priority mail. So multiple things on one package is the best way to go!

Here we go!


1. old navy sequined tote $ 4.00
2. Alice in wonderland purse from k-mart $4.00
3. military style corduroy messenger from target $8.00
4. aqua backpack from target $5.00
5. Sheer black/glass beaded scarf $8.00


6. camo Vintage Fresh make-up bag $3.00
7. black plastic headbands $2.00 each
8. small hello kitty change purse $2.00
9. yellow satin embroidered purse $3.00
10. small star purse from wal mart $4.00


11. magic stretch scarf $4.00
12. rust colored Urban Outfitters owl scarf $5.00
13. Multi colored made by me. Extra long $5.00
14. blue made by myself $5.00
15. skinny red/orange/purple made by me $5.00
16. shiney silver and red $4.00
17. Ice cream striped scarf, made by me $6.00


18. h&m chain earrings with blue beads $1.00
19. silver star earrings $1.00
20. two magenta stretchy rhinestone bracelets $2.00
21. set of three pairs h&m earrings $2.00
22. silver turquoise oval chain fringe h&m earrings $1.00
23. Avon green seed bead strand necklace with matching circle earrings $6.00
24. multi colored pastel circle earrings $2.00
25. green and gold necklace $5.00
26. silver and lavender "friend, sister, forever" bracelet $3.00
27. multi strand green and blue necklace $3.00
28. two fake silver chains, one with fake diamond $1.00
29. dangling teardrop h&m earrings $2.00
30. squared faced watch from target $8.00
31. orange/plastic heart chain necklace $2.00
32. fake gold/blue tassel necklace $1.00
33. apple necklace $4.00
34. blue sunglasses $4.00
35. pink hello kitty headphones $4.00
36. Avon brown/gold seed bead strand necklace with 2 pairs of matching circle earrings $7.00
37. square iridescent rhinestone earrings $2.00
38. green and blue button earrings $1.00
39. blue and yellow bead earrings $1.00
40. blue/green/yellow circle earrings $1.00
41. blue skull studded bracelet $2.00


Jewelry details.


(I apologize to those of you who got me some of these things, I've just outgrown a lot of them and they don't get any love :( And I'm trying to stop being such a pack rat.)

Thanks for looking!

I also have some prints available!
$12 each, signed by me, including shipping/handling and they come with treats.


5 prints available


6 prints available

Jen wants to go and get married now. She wants to move to new york as soon as her Paramedic license is received. She's going to be applying to FDNY as a paramedic because they accepted her as an emt and told her to reapply again later. She has all sorts of plans for us and here I am, working near 40 hours a week, unable to save anything, unmotivated to get a new job or my permit.

I feel trapped. And I dunno if getting married next week (she's serious...) is going to alleviate the stress. I want to get married when I feel like I can distribute the same things to our relationship as she can.

I'm unmotivated about finding a new job because I'm such a creature of habit. My entire routine will change and I have to learn something new. It's not being lazy, it's just the stress of change I guess. I feel trapped at starbucks too though, like it's my duty to stay at this store. Which it isn't at all.

I'm rambling. This month is over and that's a shame. I wanted to find time to visit friends in lowell and visit bethy in new hampshire.

Soon....

I tried to stop smoking, but that hasn't worked either. Oh well.

I hate that I live paycheck to paycheck. I hate that I'm not motivated enough to find a better paying job, not that it would be the easiest thing to do. I hate my commute and that I'm not home frequently enough to keep it tidy. I hate my body for all the pains I've been getting (especially back pains, foot pains and cluster headaches.) I hate that buying a skirt and sandals make me feel guilty for spending any money on myself. I hate dishes. I hate starbucks customers (well, most of them.) I hate that I have all this hate inside of me. I hate having anxiety. I hate arthritis. I hate that I can't produce more then 1 complete piece of art work every 1-2 weeks. I hate bills. I hate my insurance for not paying more then it did for my check up. I hate my dad for not telling me my glasses couldn't be paid for by his insurance, thus them charging me more money then the glasses cost. I hate that I don't/can't hang out with people I love. I hate my work clothes and how impossible it's been to get them to a laundromat. I hate feeling like I'm wasting time or losing time.

hate hate hate hate hate


But I love Jen, very very much. I don't know what I'd do without her. I love her smell, her hugs, her kisses, spooning with her on sundays, making food with her, laughing at her jokes and especially her songs about me, which there are many of.




I also love coffee.




As well as my newest drawing.





I've been having a lot of interesting dreams that I can't remember when I'm fully awake. I needs to keep my journal in between the wall and the mattress I think. A lot of them involve really odd interactions with people I know, and lots of traveling.

I've never had a cat that was blind before, but we're pretty sure he is. He responds to sounds and smells more often the movement, it's interesting. He's being incredibly snuggly right now. Need to take him to the vet soon, not like I can afford it on Starbucks pay.

Speaking of which, I'm so tired of working there. I'm there 5-6 days a week, I've been with the company for nearly 3 years and make ALMOST 11 dollars an hour.

I want to find a new job, I want to do something involving art maybe, something that doesn't involve customer service/food.....

School loans are raping my bank account.

We still miss living in somerville.

I wish I had something more interesting to write about.

Like how much wine I've had to drink lately, I'm trying to not buy cigarettes and It's been 3 days now.... ARGH! *craving the nicotine*

oh, art? I haven't posted any in awhile...


Aqua hair by *catzilla on deviantART


on the ledge wip HELP by *catzilla on deviantART


feel the wind by *catzilla on deviantART


Off to ikea with the wife :P

is two weeks away. shit.

I have to get things printed like asap. I hope I can make some money there. That would be nice.

Working on my website. It's saaaad.

I do listen to a lot of stoner music. My ipod is amazing and filled with nearly every genre....mostly weird and dance stuff though... And Metal..... Yep.

So, I turn 24 on the 10th!

I'm having a party at the house that day, too. Should be, um, interesting.

Also, this year marks 5 years with Jen!!! I was going to pop the question until she started hinting at it. I did give her a pretty ring, but she beats me at being a super nerd and adorable...

Here's how she asked:



Yes! I got a cute minty green nano. I'm going to make a cushy little pouch for it. It's so little.


In other news, I've have horrible back pain in between my shoulder blades for a few weeks. Need to go to the doctor. Stretching doesn't help, ibprofin doesn't help. I can't sleep. I sat up last night at 2am, just bawling because it hurt so bad. Jen tried to calm me down and I propped my legs up and my pilows up and eventually fell asleep.


anyways, here's a nerdy meme... then onto that paper I should have written last year.

ANIME/MANGA NERD
[x] You watch anime.
[x] You read manga.
[x] You buy/collect anime DVDs or manga volumes.
[x] You own some other form of anime/manga merchandise.
[x] You have referred to an anime character as 'hot' before.
[x] You have cosplayed. (not frequently, and it's half-assed...)
[x] You have done so in public.
[x] You have been to an anime/manga convention.
[ ] You have created/joined a fanclub for an anime/manga character.
[ ] You have created/joined a hateclub for an anime/manga character.
[ ] You have squealed when you found out somebody had the same name as an anime character you knew.
[ ] You enjoy drawing anime.
[ ] People you know know you as the 'anime' person.
[x] You know that it is pronounced 'mahnguh' and not 'manga' like it is spelled.

ANIME/MANGA POINTS: 9/14


ART NERD
[x] You like art.
[x] You actually consider yourself an artist.
[x] When using art supplies, the brand of them matters to you. (Tria markers, why did you change!??!?)
[x] You have a favorite brand.
[x] You have asked for art supplies as a Christmas/birthday gift before.
[x] You give people your drawings as gifts.
[x] People actually ask for your drawings.
[x] You are known as 'the art person' at your school. (uh, in high school...)
[x] Instead of just 'brown' or ' pink', you'd be specific; it's 'sienna brown' or 'blush pink'.
[x] You have taken an art class outside of school.
[x] You have considered a career as an artist. (I'm trying... It's all freelance at the moment.)
[x] Your school papers are always covered in doodles.
[x] You have a favorite artist.
[x] Your drawings have been framed.
[x] You carry a sketchbook with you everywhere you go.
ART NERD POINTS: 15/15


MUSICAL NERD
[x] You play a musical instrument. (bass, kind of.. I'm learning.)
[ ] You play more than one instrument.
[x] You actually really enjoy playing your instrument. (I want more time to practice!)
[ ] You've given your instrument a name.
[ ] You've participated in an extracurricular activity for your instrument.
[ ] You are known by what you play.
[ ] You listen to classical music.
[ ] You are wondering whether that refers to the classical music genre or the classical music time period.
[ ] You have a favorite composer.
[ ] All of your friends are from your band/orchestra class.
[ ] You write music.
[ ] You've had discussions with your friends about music; your favorite composers/instruments/musical time periods/key/etc...
[ ] You have considered a professional career with your instrument.
[ ] You are never nervous playing for other people.
MUSICAL NERD POINTS: 2/14 (sad)


VIDEO GAME NERD
[x] You play video games.
[x] You own more than 4 different video game systems. (in my household we have Wii, ps2, xbox, xbox360, old school nintendo, 2 DS, gameboy color...... >_>)
[x] You've had debates over which system is the greatest.
[x] You play video games every day. (used to. No time lately and I'm getting mad at my zelda games.)
[x] You have played a video game for over 10 hours. (oh yes. Katamari especially.)
[ ] You have songs from your favorite video games on your MP3.
[x] You love to talk about video games.
[ ] You memorize the dates for when a new game is being released.
[ ] People know you as the 'gamer' person.
[ ] You spend more time on video games than you do hanging out with friends.
[x] Your gaming system is in your room. (the ds and xbox are)
[x] You have preferences when it comes to what company your game came from.
[x] You've had debates over which company is the best.
[x] You keep playing a game until you beat it. (I try to, it's hard when they start SUCKING... *cough*phantom hourglass*cough*)
[ ] It makes you angry when you found out somebody looked up cheat codes on the internet to beat their game.
VIDEO GAME NERD POINTS: 10/15

COMPUTER NERD
[x] You use the computer every day.
[x] You have an account/username on some sort of social website.
[ ] You go into random internet chatrooms.
[x] You spend at least 2 hours a day on the computer.
[x] You use computer faces; : D XD XP D: ^_^ >.> and etc.
[x] It is hard to go a day without using the computer.
[ ] You spend time in online forums.
[ ] In the forum/chatroom you use, you are known there by everyone else.
[x] You have friends you have only met online.
[ ] You have/had a girlfriend/boyfriend you have only met online.
[x] You have actually met an online friend in person.
[x] U cn ezly rd 'txttlk. (you can easily read text talk) (I can read it, I refuse to type that crap.)
[x] You have said 'lol' or 'omg' in speech that is not online.
[x] You can type really, really fast. (kinda. I type really weird though.)
COMPUTER NERD POINTS:10/14

nerd points total: 46/72

So, the year is almost over, and it's SNOWING!

It's so pretty out :D

I haven't been doing much. Went shopping and made a ton of cookies with MJ sunday. Had some really lovely days with Jen. went to work. Started a drawing.

( The first entry of each month in 2007. )


My new favorite show is The Mighty Boosh






I <3 Vince :D

I hate the winter. I'm really happy with everything right now except for being really, really cold. All the time.

Jen is almost done with school! It's amazing!

Christmas is too close for comfort.

I have 1, 2, 3..... 6 or 7 packages to send?

Haven't paid rent because I has no monies until midnight.

Even then, I have to pay a my first student loan 250 by the 14th.....

I want to hide. haha.

Winter makes me sad for no reason, causing me to over think things that are fine and that I shouldn't waste time worrying about.

Nothing super exciting. Played with my inks for the first time in awhile. Not sure how I feel really.






Been working a lot, haven't slept well, except for today, I slept for a LONG time. The kitties are hanging out, it's cold.

Have you seen Quiggley? He's the newest member of the family. I love the demon. He's a shoulder cat and likes to attack/lay on faces.




I couldn't stop laughing, that's why his face looks like that.... How is this comfy, Quigs? Kitties are silly.


p.s. a meme....

Respond to this and I will do the following:
1. Tell you why I friended you.
2. Associate you with something - fandom, a song, a colour, a photo, etc.
3. Tell you something I like about you.
4. Tell you a memory I have of you.
5. Ask something I've always wanted to know about you.
6. Tell you my favorite user pic of yours.
7. In return, you must post this in your LJ.

I probably won't. My fairy wings will go to waste and I'll just wear something I feel pretty in. Oh well.

I'd make something, but on such short notice and my lack of confidence in making my own clothes, it won't happen.

I'll be at Tokyo Kid all night judging the costume contest. I'm afraid of the people there. lol. It'll make me remember why I don't go to anime conventions. Ha.

You maybe should have gone to school for something else?

I feel like I wasted my time as a fashion major at massart.

I stuck it out for as long as I could, but my love is in illustration. And I'm trying so hard to keep shaping and morphing my style. Keeping it fresh, keeping it fluid.

I draw too many profiles!!! Christ. But I love them. They make me happy. I think profiles are beautiful....

I'm just venting.

I need something. I need to make myself practice life drawing more.

I kind of wish I majored as an illustrator. Or animation.


In other news, I rearranged the house. It looks insane, but it's getting there. Gotta move the hutch, Jen's records and that stupid bed.

Need a new couch and dressers. I'll be living out of suitcases until that happens.


I go back to work next week. Shit.

I want to get my nose re-pierced before that.

My mom's wedding is the week after.


ATTENTION LOWELL FRIENDS!!!!
NOVEMBER 16th!!!!
If anyone from Lowell is interested, Beck and a couple of her friends will be over to model my clothes for pictures for my website. I want to see the whole Lowell crew! I haven't seen you in far too long!

We could have a bacon party. I'll be more then happy to host you all, breakfast for dinner if you bring the groceries!

What do you think?

I'm re-rearranging the house so that it's our house again. Not the segregation of crap that it's become. The living room will be fantastic again. Thank god.

we need:
-new dressers
-new couch
-new desk
-bedframe

And some other random crap. Hopefully we can get it before the end of the year. ESPECIALLY the dressers. We don't have enough room to share drawers.

This is kind of an exciting thing. The house has been so disorganized. I have no idea where to put that stupid bed that Lily has commandeered. Lame.

So, I'll be a busy kitty today.

and dead tired by the time I finish.

I'm so happy thing are back to how they should be :D